| spring break. |
[Mar. 5th, 2005|07:08 pm] |
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| | bouncy | ] |
| [ | air waves |
| | thrice - the illusion of safety | ] |
meet me.
in san francisco!
i still hate live journal.
with all my guts.
yes.
all of them. |
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| fucking prostitution. is amazing. |
[Jan. 10th, 2005|11:31 pm] |
| [ | disposition |
| | flamboyant/bastardness | ] |
| [ | air waves |
| | alexisonfirecaneatoutmyassholeandiwouldlikeit. | ] |
do you ever see that sign coming back to grand valley on lake michigan right by the grand river that says "abortion hurts women.."
well i want to put up a billboard that says "vasectomies hurt men."
cutting shit hurts.
this just in:
I FUCKING HATE LIVE JOURNAL AND ALL YOU LIVE FUCKING JOURNAL FUCKERS.
suck my nine. i would have said eight. but nine sounds better. but not quite as accurate as eight.
no. you know what. fuck you. |
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| if i could i would fart on you. |
[Dec. 13th, 2004|08:21 pm] |
| [ | disposition |
| | groovy | ] |
| [ | air waves |
| | brand new | ] |
while i am not the biggest fan of the king of beers, **cough**, it makes for a good laugh every now and again.
Today we salute you stressed out college students during exam week. As you sit in your lonely cubical in the library, doped up on Starbucks and Aderol, you think to yourself, "am I ever going to need to know this stuff in life?"
The distractions are tempting and you have suddenly diagnosed yourself with ADD along with advanced delusionary schizophrenia with involuntary narcissistic rage. I'm sure by now you know exactly what everyone is doing because you have checked your buddy list 800 times. Christmas break is just days away. Your Prozac prescription will be in tomorrow.
So crack open an ice cold bud light before and after that last exam because most of your Christmas break will be spent in rehab.
salute this. monkey. |
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| my utter lack of persistence. |
[Dec. 1st, 2004|11:53 pm] |
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| | tired | ] |
| [ | air waves |
| | garden state soundtrack in my head. | ] |
"I imagine that one of the reasons people cling to their hates so stubbornly is because they sense, once hate is gone, that they will be forced to deal with pain."
– James Baldwin from Notes of a Native Son.
there is beauty in the breakdown.
i saw garden state for the first time yesterday. i can honestly say it moved me to tears. wonderful. |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 14th, 2004|10:22 am] |
| [ | disposition |
| | satisfied/jealous/poopy pants. | ] |
| [ | air waves |
| | no music. just buzz. | ] |
My brother called me from Texas recently. It was the first contact with him since he left for basic training in the middle of August. It was a very, very, very, very pleasant and exciting surprise. He gets to come home for twenty days, beginning the last week of November. After the twenty days home he is going straight to Naha, Japan, which is located on the island of Okinawa. Karate Kid DVD set here I come. Japan next summer. Here I come!
I did this little thing last winter some time.
My dear brother: a very quick tempered young man with an aggressive attitude to all those in opposition of his ideals; emotions similar to that of a flower that has yet to bloom.
Its taut petals remain coupled unless pried. Frequent inquisition generally renders an intense disregard for sympathy; it is taken in to the mouth and chewed only a little and spit back out, like an immature orange whose bitter substance has yet to season. But consideration for someone's mental well being isn't wholly wrong is it?
Despite these attempts to alleviate symptoms of grief, the intricate endeavor typically wounds the delicate and juvenile buds, drowning the blossom in tide pools of intention; it comforts dormancy until the following season. But the stem needs more nourishment than its receptacles are aware of, and the small unit that binds together and strives to penetrate the feeble petals, is aware of the supplement it contains to aid in the growth of confidence. At least we think. All we want out of this is the satisfaction of a job well done.
I miss him. But I know he is doing good. Soon he will be with his little family. And he will be happy. I will be happy. |
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| lolly pop. red. and tasty. |
[Nov. 10th, 2004|08:39 am] |
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| | cold | ] |
| [ | air waves |
| | my own blend of soft music. bitch. | ] |
| Global Personality Test Results | Stability (62%) moderately high which suggests you are relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic. Orderliness (48%) medium which suggests you are moderately organized, hard working, and reliable while still remaining flexible, efficient, and fun. Extraversion (57%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity. | Take Free Global Personality Testpersonality tests by similarminds.com
i hate all that is you. and me. us. the divergence of one. the separation. and emptiness. and relaxation. to be totally oblivious to overcompensation.
i need you to truly experience the undercurrent and swim in the stagnant refuse you so half-heartedly generate for everyone |
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| the white hizzy. |
[Nov. 4th, 2004|12:54 am] |
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| | anxious | ] |
think about this for a bit:
The choice of this election year was way above being a Democrat or a Republican. It was way above details of the Vietnam War, being a "flip-flopper" or a good "war president", and giving a good image.
It doesn't take a lot of research or even awareness to see the harm that this man has done to the US freedoms, US finances and the image of his country around the world. It is not hard to see how bad the Israel-Palestine situation has become in just four years because of his unilateral support, to see all the incredible lies that were lined up to justify the Iraqi war. It's not hard to see all the financial and moral imbroglio of former and current oil and defense companies and the millions they make in Iraq. It's not hard to see how they dare send under-equipped innocent soldiers into a urban warfare nightmare and kill innocent civilians... it's not hard.
keep it real in the white hizzy. |
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| are you ready for the downfall? |
[Nov. 3rd, 2004|12:42 am] |
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| | apathetic | ] |
| [ | air waves |
| | silence | ] |
this is what history has told us:
poor people need to be creative in the ways they obtain influence. if the lower classes can cause enough distribution in the society, the elites and more affluent may have to give them concession. when the underclass revolts, they threaten social order.
it is then the situation changes for the governing class involved. |
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| when society chokes you. like Razor Wire. |
[Oct. 28th, 2004|12:51 pm] |
| [ | disposition |
| | thankful | ] |
| [ | air waves |
| | brand new | ] |
Madness is a blind sparrow that wandered into a cage.
I can see its little wings flapping frantically, recklessly searching for an escape. Sure it is blind. And yes, how would it know it was trapped? Put anything in a cage long enough and you are bound to witness some degree of animosity.
Fucking sparrow.
The blind see what they want to see.
See also: insanity. See also: lunacy. See also: mania. See also: dementia.
Synonyms: insanity, lunacy, madness, mania, dementia. These nouns denote conditions of serious mental disability. Insanity is a grave, often prolonged condition that prevents a person from being held legally responsible for his or her actions: was judged not guilty for reasons of insanity. Lunacy often denotes derangement relieved intermittently by periods of clear-mindedness: yelled wildly in a moment of utter lunacy. Mania refers principally to the excited, or manic, phase of bipolar disorder: prescribed drugs to control the patient's periods of mania. Dementia implies mental deterioration brought on by an organic brain disorder: underwent progressive stages of dementia.
Bring out your dead. And close your fucking mouth. |
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| there is a clot in my urethra. |
[Oct. 20th, 2004|04:31 pm] |
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| | awesome. | ] |
| [ | air waves |
| | fuck you. | ] |
hello hippie fucks. long time no spank.
how easy is it to start writing when you want to say everything at once? well awesome. i finally got my expressionistic website up and going. again. made it all perty. i think there is a link to it above or something. school is kickin. i received the second highest grade on a paper in my history class. yeah. im that good. bitch.
im lost for werds.
other than that things couldnt be better. |
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| Control is an illusion. |
[Sep. 14th, 2004|11:51 am] |
| [ | disposition |
| | lethargic | ] |
| [ | air waves |
| | alexisonfire | ] |
For many environmental groups, Mr. Bush's legacy was assured in his first year, thanks to highly publicized decisions that effectively repudiated Clinton administration positions. Mr. Bush backed off a campaign pledge to regulate carbon dioxide and abandoned the 1997 Kyoto Protocol, an international agreement to reduce heat-trapping gases linked to global warming. Then the administration pushed, unsuccessfully, for a law allowing oil drilling in the Arctic National Wildlife Refuge. It scrapped the phaseout of snowmobiles in Yellowstone National Park and briefly dropped a Clinton proposal to cut the permissible level of arsenic in drinking water by 80 percent.... |
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| yeah. ima cooter. |
[Aug. 10th, 2004|10:53 pm] |
| [ | disposition |
| | thirsty | ] |
time again for another summer daywetdream.
hey, listen to this! george bush never became president! not only that, we never invaded iraq, killing thousands of civilians and turning it into a vast, new staging area for terrorism! and get this, we didnt torture and kill prisoners in afghanistan, iraq and guantanamo! and hey, were not hated around the world (at least as much as we are now)!
nope! and the american people are far more secure! and they havent been polarized by a war thats cost nearly 900 american lives!
** SNAP **
daywetdream over.
good bye. |
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| just a little bit o' lovin. from the oven. |
[Aug. 10th, 2004|01:29 pm] |
| [ | disposition |
| | exanimate | ] |
| [ | air waves |
| | the used | ] |
there really is a big difference between a senator authorizing the potential use of force, based on misinformation, and a President fabricating that information and actually starting a war.
you witch me? |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 5th, 2004|12:44 am] |
| [ | disposition |
| | cynical | ] |
| [ | air waves |
| | a high pitched ring. i believe coming from the vent. | ] |
yeah. so tonight i did the un-thinkable. i tried to go through the wendy's drive-thru on my bike.
i pulled up to the little speaker thingy and no voice came to take my order. a car had just pulled away and went to the first window so i figured the person with the headset was just busy taking the customers money. after realizing that this could be a plausible situation--pitted against others that crossed my mind--i peddled my bike up to the window and knocked. the headset fiend who opened the window was merely a kid. probably still in high school or just graduated. before he could speak i took it upon myself to order a small frosty. thats all i wanted. really. a frosty.
i mean i would be helping wendys out. they would be getting some money and a customer.
but when i heard the disappointing words, "im not allowed to do this," my heart sunk. i questioned him if the reason he couldnt serve me was because of my bike. he said it was. i put his wendys employee values on the line and mentioned that if he completed my purchase, wendys would actually make .99 cents, plus tax, more than they would have if i hadnt come up to the window on my schwinn mach 2' 21 speed mountain bike for a small frosty and a little bit a lovin. i mean profit is good.
but alas he held true to the wendys code of honor. and i will confess that i did not leave with a frown. no sir. or maam.
i left with a smile.
fuckin apostrophes give me the willies.
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| up with mini-skirts. down with bush. |
[Aug. 4th, 2004|03:40 pm] |
| [ | disposition |
| | relaxed | ] |
| [ | air waves |
| | thursday | ] |
a lot have people have tried to argue the point that the edwards/kerry administration doesnt really have a plan or agenda for their promises and words. that they are all just hype and smiling faces. pretty hair.
swallow this mutha-fuckah.
http://www.johnkerry.com/plan
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 30th, 2004|01:09 pm] |
| [ | disposition |
| | nauseated | ] |
| [ | air waves |
| | my chemical romance | ] |
Things you have to believe to be a Republican today:
Being a drug addict is a moral failing and a crime, unless you’re a conservative radio host. Then it’s an illness and you need our prayers for your recovery.
The United States should get out of the United Nations, and our highest national priority is enforcing U.N. resolutions against Iraq.
Government should relax regulation of Big Business and Big Money but crack down on individuals who use marijuana to relieve the pain of illness.
“Standing Tall for America” means firing your workers and moving their jobs to India.
A woman can’t be trusted with decisions about her own body, but multi-national corporations can make decisions affecting all mankind without regulation.
Jesus loves you, and shares your hatred of homosexuals and Hillary Clinton.
The best way to improve military morale is to praise the troops in speeches while slashing veterans’ benefits and combat pay.
Group sex and drug use are degenerate sins unless you someday run for governor of California as a Republican.
If condoms are kept out of schools, adolescents won’t have sex.
A good way to fight terrorism is to belittle our long-time allies, then demand their cooperation and money.
HMOs and insurance companies have the interest of the public at heart.
Providing health care to all Iraqis is sound policy. Providing health care to all Americans is socialism.
Global warming and tobacco’s link to cancer are junk science, but creationism should be taught in schools.
Saddam was a good guy when Reagan armed him, a bad guy when Bush’s daddy made war on him, a good guy when Cheney did business with him and a bad guy when Bush needed a “we can’t find Bin Laden” diversion.
A president lying about an extramarital affair is an impeachable offense. A president lying to enlist support for a war in which thousands die is solid defense policy.
Government should limit itself to the powers named in the Constitution, which include banning gay marriages and censoring the Internet.
The public has a right to know about Hillary’s cattle trades, but George Bush’s driving record is none of our business.
You support states’ rights, which means Attorney General John Ashcroft can tell states what local voter initiatives they have a right to adopt.
What Bill Clinton did in the 1960s is of vital national interest, but what Bush did in the ’80s is irrelevant.
Trade with Cuba is wrong because the country is communist, but trade with China and Vietnam is vital to a spirit of international harmony.
john kerry for president. |
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| you know not what you do. |
[Jul. 16th, 2004|01:41 am] |
| [ | disposition |
| | lethargic | ] |
| [ | air waves |
| | some stupid high pitched ring. | ] |
fuck the bubble nut.
i have always like the term 'fatty battery acid' and i dont know why. i came up with it a long time ago. i keep saying it over and over.
like a mantra. or a biscuit.
i worked 14 hours today. with no bullets.
Article [II.] A well regulated Militia, being necessary to the security of a free State, the right of the people to keep and bear Arms, shall not be infringed.
when the second amendment was written, do you think the author(s) envisioned a future where americans owned semi-automatic weapons--merely for the plain thrill of cold steel and power--and used them against each other? you must know--from history, of course--that during the time this amendment was written, 'ARMS' meant a good thirty seconds to load one bullet.
a wise man once said:
"there is enough in this world for every mans deed. but there will never be enough for every mans greed."
give it a moment--or fifty--to process.
people are silly. they hurt my eyes.
you hurt my eyes. |
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| up with miniskirts. down with bush. |
[Jul. 9th, 2004|02:07 am] |
| [ | disposition |
| | drugged | ] |
| [ | air waves |
| | dashboard confessional | ] |
my dad is pro-bush. he even admits that he is ignorant when it comes to the issues. he says that war is necessary.
necessary for what? money? oil?
he once told me, indirectly, that money is more important than the commitment we have to ourselves and our environment. i can understand why he thinks war is necessary.
defending your home and your land and your life. that is what war is for.
im sorry. you smell.
war is good for business. in the case of iraq, not only are destruction and death profitable, so is reconstruction. and when your friends send untendered contracts worth hundreds of millions of dollars your way, it's hard to be a dove.
war profiteering. awesome. |
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| whatever you do... |
[Jul. 6th, 2004|02:37 am] |
| [ | disposition |
| | restless | ] |
| [ | air waves |
| | tick. tick. ticking. | ] |
just dont give a fuck. it is so much easier.
the defining aspect of humanity is the manipulation of our own environment. if we are uncomfortable, we change something around us to achieve the comfort we think we deserve--or need, whatever. this now extends to our own mental environment.
we look for someone or something around us to change, in order for us to be happy again. we would never think of changing anything inside. that would be too easy. plus wouldnt we just be setting ourselves up for failure? nope. well, i shouldnt concede that just yet. because changing yourself does come with much risk. but not in the long run. so, we sue fast-food restaurants for making us fat, pharmaceutical companies for making us sick. we blame the media and advertisers for making us stupid.
well, i say your life is yours and yours alone. if your fat, sick, stupid, uncomfortable or unhappy, its your own damn fault--considering you are one of the complainers mentioned above who love to swim in their own urine and, when out of breath, have others smell it--by the way i would love to sit with you and argue you to your wits end and wait for you to smash my face in because you know i hit the nail dead on, but its ok i forgive you. i know you just dont want to admit that i know that you know that youre just fucked up in the head--that im fucked up. i mean heaven forbid it would ever be a good idea to manipulate our own personal environment to provide total comfort and happiness. that would just be silly-stupid.
all of this is sad. its said that im so sad. its sad that im so sad about you being so sad. its sad that it makes you even more sad that im so sad about you being so sad.
twitch. gag. fart. barf. black-out from smelling fart. fall face first in barf.
skip the rinsing. just repeat.
if you want to change the world, change the part you have control over:
Yourfuckingself. *
* you know because swearing--did i mention bold-faced love--is just so much more effective than limiting the phrase to merely 'yourself.' i mean i wouldnt really ever intend to confuse anyone or pretend that i am something that im not.
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